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Lapis Lazuli
03:14
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Why, in your heart, does sorrow reside?
Why are you burnt by frost and by sunshine?
Why does your face look like it's come so far?
Why do you walk the wild in lion's garb?
May the gods protect you when you sleep
May you prosper, Utanapishti
May the gods forgive when you remain
May you live to see beyond the rain
May your quest for immortality
Be written there on lapis lazuli
May the world remember who you are
May your voice be lettered in the stars
May your sunken face and hollow cheeks
Be reprimanded by Ur-Shanabi
Know the life you seek you'll scarcely find
For death is the adventure of mankind
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Crystal Ball
04:06
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First glance that night, thought I was immune to you
Started to fight the logic and things that I knew
And I tried so hard to get away
Couldn't decide what I was going to do
I turned to her, but all I could picture was you
And I tried so hard to get away
But I stayed
Saw myself bleed grief, crying from pain
But here I stay til I decay
I still don't know why I am seeing this through
My crystal ball told me I couldn't have you
Still I try so hard to say
"Let's run away, I'll take your name"
Saw myself fall in deeper each day
What can I say?
I'm here to stay
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Mercury
04:42
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I ran to the bar that I had left
Where what's good burns your flesh
I ran there, patroned alone
I left my watch out in the snow
"I missed you" said the barman inside
They took my coat and then, once again, I lived their retrograde nights
And I know that the orbits will change
And the sky will go bright
But I won't be alright
'Cause I know that I'm just not with me
Can't even say it feels wrong
'Cause I don't feel. At all.
They ask how I am. I don't know what they mean.
I say I'm fine, but I'm not me
I notice empty glassware and eyes
They could be ghosts. So could I.
The barman puts an old record on
It's my favourite tune, but the words are all backwards, I can't sing along
And I know that there's windows and lights
And there's no locks or keys
But they won't let me leave
And it's summer, but it's pissing down mercury
Follows me home, and gonna swallow me whole
And they think that I'm sleeping at home
That I make my own tea
That I feel my bones
But I don't.
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Ouija Board
03:43
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It was the summer of the Prozac days, months when sun was mostly rain
But you stepped out from wallpaper that's plastered over the room
We made our Ouija board from card paper and a jar for baby food
Blessed it within a circle made of candles at compass points
And it changed, yes you changed it, it can't go back
To the same as it was before
All the wax that we melted, the grass we smoked
All the ashes that we smudged upon our Ouija board
Ran fast through the sprinklers, pushing rainbows on the lawn
Couldn't recite the poetry that spelled its way through our brains
We took a risk and put a blanket down by a river in the woods
Then we fell down the rabbit hole and ended up in hell
But it changed, how it changed, and it can't go back
To the same as it was before
All the incense we burned, all the sage we scorched
Leaving bay leaves tied around our Ouija board
I manifested a yellow hairband from the ceiling, I was scared
But you typed out the words and suddenly I wasn't afraid
I took some Polaroids, they weren't that good; pressed the button way too soon
But you! You showed me something from the pictures and then I knew
Things had changed, and they changed, and they won't go back
To the state from years before
All the things that we ate, all the cats we held
All the spirits we evoked atop our Ouija board
I love our Ouija board
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Tarot Cards
04:47
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Straining to focus my eyes, now I wish I were blind
My senses have combined
And my nerves are alight, now I wish I were numb
But they won't recognize that I'm scared
I'm pulling teeth
And it should be easy, but I can't leave
So I'm crushed with doubt and then the words start falling out my mouth like something that I ate two hours ago
And my skin starts sweating every time that I'm getting real close to the sentence I'm trying to form
Tarot cards put on a show, I'm sick, I get no relief, but can't go
I'm running and the sun won't set, I'm lost, I can't fall asleep
Oh no, tarot
Falling away from myself, I shut my doors
But I can't find the lock
I push through by myself
Now I wish I were six feet under
What's that scream? Is that me?
God it should be easy, but I can't leave
There's a sickness pouring through my bloodstream, one drip, two drops into my lungs
There's a growth that's pressing on my spine, it's paralyzing both legs, I can't run
There's a sinking, twisting feeling in my gut like I just swallowed poison
Gotta make this hard with your tarot cards?
Give me one good reason to bite
Tarot cards, give your prognosis, tell me what to expect
But just go
'Cause I'm yelling, rooted to the ground, but no one seems to hear me
Oh no, tarot
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Candlelight
03:22
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The ember's fading fast, I know it's hard
When the lumps of melted wax have left you scarred
Soggy matches never make a spark
But when the balance is thrown off, do your part
Almost nothing, we give a sorry glow
Beneath the wreckage, please make sure you know
That time is passing, next to nothing left
Please make these last few moments your very best
And get the spark up in the sky and know this blaze should never die
Throw the remorse in a wishing well, and damn this dimness straight to hell
Don't be ruffled by the air, you know that isn't right
You should've been charmed enough to just be there in my broken candlelight
No wick left to burn, and I'm not ashamed
Was once a forest fire left untamed
The warmth has been forgotten of where we began
Because, you know, I'm tired of singeing my hands
My soul was with the ice and the rain and the snow
But I'm afraid of fire, and now you know
I find it hard to breathe with all this smoke inside my chest
And I find the air is sweeter when these flames are suppressed
Sometimes it's just impossible for me to ignite
But I saw a spark up in the sky and I wish that it had never died
I know you could see me when I was bright but I can't glow til I'm alright
I'm not ruffled by the air, 'cause now I've learned to fight
You should've been charmed enough to just be there in my broken candlelight
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So Mote It Be
04:00
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Get away as fast as you can, lest you become bewitched by the coven
Let the white light break the black, and don't assume that the earth will get you back
Try to make something of your days, take my hand and repeat the mantra phrase
There's no darkness, just trust your foresight. Yeah, we'll be alright.
But do you know why I ask these questions? 'Cause I don't think I know me anymore
Shook me when life wasn't easy, reinforced what I adore
Not bound my lore nor by decree, but by our thoughts and by our deeds
Whisper softly, shout and scream, and sing so mote it be
Read my palms, read between the lines, read my lips, teeth, tongue a hundred times
Learn the chant and repeat the chorus; there's so much that the guides have for us
Talk to them when the world is black, talk to them and I promise they'll talk back
Don't be scared because you're in control, more than you know
But do you know why I ask these questions? 'Cause I don't think I know me anymore
Shook me when life wasn't easy, found it knocking at my door
Not bound my lore nor by decree, but by our thoughts and by our deeds
Whisper softly, shout and scream, and sing so mote it be
But do you know why I ask these questions? 'Cause I don't think I know me anymore
Shook me when life wasn't easy, saw it on my Ouija board
And crystal balls find mercury, and candlelight sees lapis lazuli
Whisper softly, shout and scream, and sing so mote it be
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kelpi Vancouver, British Columbia
Hailing straight from the faerie realm, kelpi is still trying to figure out how human life works. She's doing her very best to tell her story through song~~~
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